Well, it's October and I have officially been homeschooling my six year old for about two months. Never, ever, in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that this would be me. I am a highly organized, goal-driven, career educator. Up until recently I was pretty proud of the fact that I was able to maintain a happy, healthy marriage, manage a clean house, well-groomed and mannered children, a high pressure career and still have time to host holidays. But early in September my life was turned upside down. In light of the sweeping changes in education I became increasingly concerned with the content of what was being taught to my children. After a quick look it was apparent that the public schools I had once attended, worked in and even sent my daughter to no longer existed. Sure I could go on about my story, talk about what happened to us and what I am doing to push back against the system, but that's not the point of this blog post.
Today, I am just thinking about my little boy. All of the accomplishments I boasted about are nothing if I had missed the mark on what's really important in life. Sometimes we can get so caught up in the day to day that we fail to see that things are changing right in front of our eyes. If we continue to do the same routine day in and day out, afraid to take a drastic step, then we have to ask ourselves-- what is it all for anyway? What is the point of doing all these lovely things if my son grows up learning to comply and conform in our government schools? Children are a gift from the Lord and as parents, we are charged with being good stewards of all that He gave us. So, if that means my life is upside down, so be it. Last night, as I put him down to sleep, I closed my eyes and he must have thought I had fallen asleep. He leaned over, kissed me and whispered, "you are my only light in the darkness when I am afraid." My heart melted. In that moment I was so grateful that he could see me as a light in the dark, his advocate and someone who will fight for him. I loved that my son said that to me. But the truth remains certain-- Jesus is the light of the world and only He can calm our fears and give us true peace. And I thought, how could I ever send him to a place for 8 hours a day where they don't share this belief? So as hectic as my thoughts have been lately, this sweet statement gave me the peace and reassurance that I am on the right path.
I am certain we are all going through some struggle. Be encouraged friend. Your trial today is your strength for tomorrow.